The BigLoser at her best

I love summer. I just don't like the first week of July. This is when I start getting the half hearted birthday wishes.

"I just wanted to tell you before I forget, Happy Birthday!"

Thanks for that, I think? Birthdays to me are a LOT like New Years. It is a little thing my friends hear me refer to as "Forced Fun" Because it is my birthday/new years so I MUST go out and have all these plans and I must have fun. And as everyone knows plans never work out the way you want them to and then it turns into more of a stressful/disappointing day.

For example.

The Plan: Go to the bar and have a wild and crazy night of bar hoping. These plans of course not made by me but by the token bar-girl of the group. I much rather go to the museum and have a nice dinner, maybe step it up a bit.

Who is going: everyone who knows your birthday is on the horizon. Co-workers and friends. Then as the day draws nearer and nearer people keep jumping ship. "oh, I'm sorry I cant go. I have my nephews birthday party." Then when the day comes your left with the token bar-girl (then you come to realize you have never hung out with her in a small setting, or even seen her in the beginning of the night. You always meet up with her after the first few rounds.) and a co-worker who brought a bunch of her friends. Now at this point it looks like a pity party.

What Actually Happens: You get all dressed up. You end up driving yourself to the bar. You have a beer in awkward silence with you new friends of a friend. The beer is warm and bitter for some reason. You grow extremely tired. All you want to do is go home and get into your pj's. The friends of a friend also want to leave and you tell convince your friend that it is fine to go with them and you tell her your tired anyways. You leave and grab some food from the drive through and go home and fall asleep early.

Today is the 1st. My birthday is on the 6th. I just have to make it through Friday and its over. OH AND I FORGOT THE WORST IS YET TO COME!!! This year is my 29th, but next year will be a milestone birthday! Crap. Maybe I can arrange to be on vacation during that time. I did always want to go on an Alaskan cruise.